Ever since I decided to go back to school to get my degree, my self image I would say has improved the most. I really feel like I'm doing something of signficance now. I'm actually happy that my brain is being stimulated with academics. I can clearly see the light at the end of my tunnel with graduating down the road .
The goal I set up from the begining is achievable and on track still.
       I just feel so useful now even though as a stay at home mom your are very useful and needed and always working. Maybe because this is something I'm doing for myself, where as being a stay at home mom is always doing for your kids and hubby and seldom for yourself.
     I also feel like I'm more of an inspiration for my 15 year old daughter as well. She hopefully will be starting College in three more years as she graduates from High School.  I have been for years instilling in her the importance of a college degree now a days that hopefully there will be no option of not going. I tried doing the same with my 21 year old daughter , however she at the last minute decided she'll go to college later. It broke my heart, so this time I'm hoping my 15 year old will see the importance of going straight to college. I'm not taking an option of " later" for her; and so far she's not showing an option of putting it off.
     As I look back now at how I spent my free time before I started college, I wonder how I ever felt satisfied. I use to send the kids off to school, do whatever little house cleaning I needed to do or shopping that was needed, than spent a good four to six hours just playing stupid games on my computer. Lol. I think I had an addiction to on line gaming. After dinner was done and the kids put to bed, I would run back on my computer and play some more untill my eyes couldn't stay awake anymore. Day in and day out the same thing over and over. What a life ha? So it's not surprising to me as I look back at those times versus now why I feel so happy to be back in school doing something productive that is for me. And the on-line gaming? Yes I still play a game here and there, but very seldom, usually just when I'm fustrated with my studies and need a breif break.
   It feels great to feel like I'm important and I'm doing something of value per say, with my free time and my computer. I even feel a little younger being back in school. I'm happier all around and feel useful and blessed and thankful that I finally woke up and will be making myself a better person at the end of this goal. And if this also will be an inspiration to my daughter for her college, what more could I want or ask for??
Doreen